broken dreams and empty bottles

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Too much wine to let me think
And that's just what I need
I build a world full to the brink
And watch the life recede
I watch the light fade into dark
As my world falls apart
I drink to blind a world, stark
And ease a hurting heart
A bottle emptied yet full of pain
I filled this up myself
For this need I can't sustain
Without loosing my health
But broken men shall someday heal
Although I can't say when
For now the drunk is all I feel
As I wallow in my sins
Another chug and worries fade
Replaced by this self loathing
In a hell, I myself made
That speeds my heart's corroding
Slowly rust from broken gears
Shall fill my weary veigns
As angels weep heavenly tears
And my world goes insane
The broken gears that formed my heart
Keep chugging on, alas
My body breaks and falls apart
My soul runs out of gas
In this broken world filled
With tattered souls and hopes
You cannot walk on open fields
Without stepping on hearts, broke
A sweet embrace shall yet fill this empty hole
Where in the void between my pains
Lays a broken hurting soul
And the world shall be mine to gain
But wine is waining in it's comfort
I know not how long I'll last
For pain floods into broken hearts
As it did often in the past
I pray that joy shall someday
Find itself a hearth
Where I can be merry and gay
From an overflowing heart
So for this love from out my dreams
I shall not cease to press
And if at night I cry and scream
Know, I'm still doing my best